On this lovely mild end of the summer Saturday in TN, after running hither to and yon, forgetting to connect, I found myself…. well, disjointed inside. Confused and spiritually off-center. Realizing I haven’t had my car cleaned in about a month, yikes, I did the next right indicated thing, and pulled into the nearest car wash. Processing a myriad of emotions, I pull up to the attendant, choose my detail package, and hand him my credit card. When he brings back the signature slip he says, “Thank you very much. Neutral and no brake. ”
There is was, my message. “Neutral and no brake”. Who knew that’s where I’d hear what I needed to hear, but when we are listening, God will use anything and anyone to speak to our souls. Doing as I’d been instructed, I watched the giant soft brushes whisk soap all over my car, while a stream of crystal clear rain like water fell over me clearing away the grit & grime. The car wash didn’t need my help. It just needed me to show up and get out-of-the-way.
As the bubbles fell, I thought, “neutral”, and remembered a passage I love to read that suggest, “we cease fighting, everything and everyone.” Internally, I’d been fighting all day, having a little private war inside, arguing will people I allowed to take up rent free space in my head, while challenging my every thought.
“No brake.” Again I heard a verse from some of my daily readings, “we made a decision to turn our will and our life over to the care of God, as we understood Him.” In so doing, I take my foot off the brake and the gas. I let God decide. My life, odd as it may sound, is no longer my own, rather I have surrendered it to His care. A power greater than me, with my highest most loving interest woven through His heart, is now running the show of my life. He is writing the story. He has the pencil. I can stop rationalizing, justifying, planning, and designing.
After all was done, a young man motioned for me to move forward. He began hand drying my newly cleaned car. When he was done, he smiled through the window, with the sweetest sincerity. As I pulled forward for the interior cleaning & vacuuming, I took a deep breath and thanked God for the car wash!
It hadn’t occurred to me, He’d been there all day long, just waiting for me to put it in neutral, so He could speak.
—- Tyler Hayes
sending you love wherever you are in the world today.