Tyler's Blog

The End of the Road…..

I can't tell you how many times it feels like I've come to the end of the road, only to find out what I really came to was the end of the pavement. Before me was high tall grass, where I saw no trail, no footprints, and it seemed there was no way, that's when I could...

Easter.

A small African-American preacher stepped up to the pulpit.  He pulled a white handkerchief out of his back pocket and wiped the sweat off his forehead.  The church was full of ladies fanning their faces, men roasting in three-piece suits, and children wiggling in...

The Mystery of Life…

Tonight I learned of two deaths.  Though extremely important, the who, what, and how of these deaths is not relevant to my writing.   However, the profound effect left on my spirit as I stood witness to these stories, has moved me to share my relationship to life. I...

Feels Like Now

Some years ago I struggled with panic attacks.  If you never had one, I pray you never do, and if you have, then you understand the struggle.  Suffice it to say, IT’S AWFUL!   After years of therapy and lots of prayer, I began to understand the source of the anxiety. ...

What’s Next? Life in the UNKNOWN!

When my little sister was about three, she would become so frustrated if she couldn't make sense of something.  After coming at it from every angle she would finally look up and say, "I can not know".    I can still see her little head of spiral curls and her pink...

DO PEOPLE CHANGE?

I put the question, "do people change?", to my Facebook community.  The response was energetic, insightful, and heated.  Apparently, it's a touchy subject, which clearly means, it's touching on something inside of us.  Maybe the question touches on our shame, around...

THE GIFT

Like The Night VOCAL 2 (Click the above link to hear the song)   Valentine's evening I was running around the house trying to get ready for a date night with my guy!  With wet hair and half of my make up on, he sat me down on the edge of the bed and handed me a...

Justified Anger

09 BETTER FOR A BROKEN HEART (click to hear the song!) I woke up this morning, fluffed my cushion of justified anger, and was just about to take a seat when I heard, "Wait!  Not so fast!" So, I poured a cup of coffee, said my morning prayers and once again heard,...

Girlfriends….

Woman to woman, let's get real.  We call ourselves a sisterhood.  We are powerful, beautiful, gentle, fierce creatures!  Some of us have mini vans full of car seats and happy meals.  While others of us have brief cases tucked into the passenger seat of a Mercedes...

Does it Matter?

What Really Matters   I woke up thinking about how much time I spend wrapped up in some sort of drama or worry or fear.  Its subtle, cunning, and yet very powerful.  In my lowest self, there is the temptation to be consumed by the need to be right, to be chosen,...

The Wings Inside

Have you ever felt that flutter in the center of your chest?  I feel it when I hear truth, when someone says something that resonates with my soul.  It's like I'm slightly nervous, a bit out of breath, and strangely I want to stretch my shoulders, where the feeling...

When you’ve done everything you can……

I am a fairly resourceful person.  The people who are really close to me, know that I will keep on keeping on.  I look for solutions all the time.  It's one of the coping mechanisms I learned as a child, trying to survive my life, which was less than ideal.  At times,...

Waking Up to a New Life

I received an email, from a photographer, in response to my blog.  In the end of her letter she wrote, "Congratulations in waking up to a new life! " The words kept circling in my mind.  I couldn't help but ask the question, what does it mean to 'wake up to a new...

What do you REALLY want?

I've realized that life comes down to very simple choices, involving complicated emotions!  It feels big and overwhelming because our feelings are big and overwhelming, not because the actual choice is.  What I do know is this: when we become clear about what we...

How to Pray (there’s a song attached to this blog)

04 just let go Tonight, just as the sun was setting, I bundled up and went out for a quick walk.  (Trying to burn those holiday pounds.)  Lately my mind has been feeling like someone pressed the scramble button.  I feel almost glued to this peculiar mindset I...

The 12th Write of Christmas…. the miracle continues

I drove back into TN today after being gone for well over two weeks.  There was a strong chill in the air, but the sun was shining like warm rain, through blue skies.  I parked my car & grabbed a cup of coffee just in time to make a 12pm meeting.  There in the...

The 11th Write of Christmas—- Next?!

It's time!  Take a deep breath. This is not a dress rehearsal.  Today is the beginning of the rest of your year!  It will be as good as you invite it to be, as rich as you allow it, as big and beautiful as you are willing to experience.  From before the foundations of...

The 10th Write of Christmas — the eve of something new

Today is the eve of something new.  It holds places we have never gone, life we have yet to see, weight we just might lose, people we are going to meet.  There are feelings we are going to have, and days will love living along with days we will wish to pass quickly. ...

The 7th Write of Christmas… Miracle on 34th Street

Most of us have seen the Christmas classic, Miracle on 34th Street.  It's a great film showcasing the spiritual movement of a little girl and her mother, as they move from struggle, to hope, to seeing their dreams come true.  In the end, they have the family they...

The 6th Write of Christmas — Alone at Christmas

I woke up remembering a Christmas I spent alone.  At the time, I had been married for six and half years, but was going through a divorce.  Having spent the last nine Christmases with him, I found myself in an awkward place.  Watching other people in my family...

The 5th Write of Christmas — Empty Space

There is an energy to Christmas.  It's wild with excitement, frantic, rushing, overwhelming, and yet magical.  The lights, the generosity, the kindness of strangers is inspiring.  I love its fullness.  This year I even purchased a red glitter sleeve for my coffee cups...

The 4th Write of Christmas– Relatives

It's the holidays, which means, here come the relatives!  Even the best of families are susceptible to the worst of  holidays.  The thing is, since we left home, we don't generally sleep in close quarters with these people except for a few times a year.  For the most...

The 3rd Write of Christmas- Breathe

There's something about the first sip of a grande, half caff, non fat,  no whip, PEPPERMINT MOCHA, with 2  1/2 pumps of each and the chocolate curls...that just soothes my soul!  It's comfort in a cup.  For a moment, it feels like the whole world stands still and I...

The 2nd Write of Christmas… Expectations

I have an idea of how life should be.  It's my idea and although I know it's not the only idea, it feels like the right idea.  Based on the goals and visions and dreams I've got whirling around in my head, I form "ideas" of how those things might come to pass.  From...

the 1st write of Christmas…. HOPE.

I know everyone has a different opinion on how to handle Santa Clause.  Some parents don't want their kids to believe in Santa for religious reasons, some leave notes to Santa, send him letters, and take bites of his cookies, to assure their children Santa was here. ...

The Drive

In the fall of 2006, in the month of November, I set out on a short routine drive from Nashville to Atlanta.  That drive became one of the hardest experiences of my life.  All the way south, for four hours, I fought an ongoing panic attack and the realization that my...

The greatest lie ever told….

My mentor gave me a fabulous book for my birthday, titled:  The Book of Qualities.  As I began reading I ran across a description of PANIC, that hit me squarely between the eyes.  For years I have struggled with anxiety & panic attacks, that feeling where the...

IT IS WHAT IT IS….

For many years I have resisted the simple truth that, it is what it is!  I have come to the end of myself, the end of the road, and the end of the day, to find that more of my time was spent wrestling than resting.  Byron Katie wrote a brilliant book, titled, Loving...

SIT WITH IT

I've been whirling around in my head...... not such a good idea!   My ego lives there and as I've learned over the years, the job of the ego is to E.ase G.od O.ut.   That's the part of me that says, " I've got this", when I really don't.   It's the part of me that...

Why was I so worried?

Sitting in the studio this morning, I started thinking back over the last week.  I've been exhausted and anxious, weepy and "off".  Having a strong case of restless, irritable, and discontented, I plunged deeper into what I know works, prayer & quiet.  I kept...

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